Freaking out

I am freaking out...
moving in three weeks- no place to live (no job either-- but i seem to have some prospects).
the marathon is next weekend and i feel less and less prepared all the time. still not sleeping and i have an emotional hair trigger-- i started crying while speaking with a neighbor on the sidewalk the other day. I have become a lunatic.
the good news:
i have friends who love me. i have family that love me.
i am running a marathon in 8 days and 15 hours http://www.ncm.ca/index.php
the chances of an election being called before i can actually work for it (ie am still in QC) are pretty small. i might actually get paid too!
i never have to see (or talk to) * again
i am going to Boston to see Joanne and Max (and Thor and Rob)
i am starting law school soon-- and will be at a completely different place in my life.
i can write
i can dance
i can dream and love
maybe i'm not as bad as i thought?

Me & Dr. Phil

I love Dr. Phil. Sure, he's an arrogant jackass and a blowhard (don't really know what that word means but y'all know it fits Dr. Phil). I just get a kick out of his Texan accent being all sacastic and "helpful". He may actually provide a service of sorts (like Oprah, who I also love yet hold responsible for introducing lots of New Agey words into the national vocabulary). It's all about the downward comparisons for me: sure things might not be exactly where I want them to be right now but I? have never and will never be so f***ed up that I'll appear on his show. and for that? I am thankful. Same with the whole dating reality show thing. My friends and loved ones will not permit me to appear on one of them. Very, very thankful.

I am very excited about the Amazing Race finale tomorrow night. It's one of the best shows (in my opinion) on tv. It just makes me want to travel. I really want to go to St. Petersburg as a result of the show. of course, they go to a lot of places I've always been interested in but St. Petersburg is one of the places I'd never really thought of prior to seeing it on tv. yeah, ok, I'm a loser.

What else? Running is ok. I did 30kms yesterday which felt good. not great, mind but good. I'm running the marathon in less than 3 weeks. I am moving to Ottawa in (probably) 6 weeks. AHHH!